Who would ever know there were so many lessons to learn when one becomes 'single again?' So much to learn that it sometimes seems overwhelming.
I learned how important it was to stay busy - and especially on special days. The photo was taken on my 50th birthday. It had been a wonderful day with balloons, flowers, phone calls and cards. All this happened at work. I figured it had been such a special day and I was tired, so I would go home and spend the evening alone. I did and it was a mistake! I didn't believe anything could spoil the day since I woke up singing "happy birthday" to myself!
The first months I lived on adrenilin and nerves, knowing that eventually I would crash. I slept from about midnight to 5 a.m. People knew they could call me late because I would be up. I learned to eat when I was hungry because I didn't have much appetite. One person saw me eating a donut and asked me how I could eat that. I told her I might not be hungry the rest of the day. Of course, the crash came and I needed to take care of myself - rest and eat right.
Dating was a challenge. I dated one man for about a year - fell head over heels for him. When he broke it off, I was crushed and shed lots of tears. Some months later he wanted to be part of my life again. I thought about it - and was tempted. There was a lesson to learn - and I didn't want to have a "do over." So I said, "thanks, but no thanks."
Lots and lots of lessons to learn.
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